Chapter 01

On May 22nd, 2012 I went to see my doctors for my annual checkup. I knew I was a couple of days late but thats not unusual so I thought nothing of it. Well, she suspected something was up so she wanted me to take a pregnancy test before I left. I came out of the exam room and heard her and her nurse in the lab giggling. I walked in and my doctor gave me a big hug and started congratulating me. I thought for sure she had me mixed up with someone else, so I told her nurse to test it again, I didnt believe them. (this is much like when you find out at home and have to take 7 pregnancy tests before you start believing it). Sure enough, the test was positive again! I walked out in a daze. I was very shocked, my husband and I had a “plan” to start trying again a few months from then, but like they say, life happens when you are busy making other plans! It was a very uneventful pregnancy at first. No sickness, no tiredness, no weight gain. This concerned me. I went for my second appointment (now 8 weeks pregnant) and told my doctor there was something wrong. I had already had blood work done, and after the ultrasound that day and a sonograph with a strong heartbeat in the 170s, she assured me that everything was just fine. My pregnancy continued, and while I couldnt shake the feeling something was wrong, I tried to ignore it and believe my doctor when she told me it was just second baby jitters and it was fine. 14 weeks came around, by this time my pregnancy symptoms were in full swing, and we decided to go to a place in town that could do an ultrasound “for fun” and tell us what the gender of our little peanut was. We made a big ordeal of it, invited all of our family and my best friends so they could watch the ultrasound on the big screen tv. Before we went in, a feeling of dread again smacked me in the face. I cried in the car because all of our family was with us, and I was afraid there wouldnt be a heartbeat. My husband assured me all was fine, and into the ultrasound place we went. I laid down on the table as everyone gathered in the room and silently prayed that my baby would be bouncing around on the monitor. Sure enough, there she was! I knew as soon as we saw her, she was a girl. The ultrasound tech silently confirmed to me what she was before announcing ITS A GIRL on the big screen that everyone was watching the ultrasound on. I left in a state of bliss. Two girls?! Oh the fun they will have together! The late night whispering in their rooms, sharing clothes when they got older. It was all unfolding in front of me, but still, that nagging feeling persisted…..


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